"Life is not measured by the breaths you take, but by the moments that take your breath away."

Stopwatch

Sometimes I wish life could be run with a stopwatch that only I could control. Said stopwatch would also be able to return me to certain moments that did not end as well as they should have. I’ve never been one to live with regret, but sometimes I wish I could re-live moments and ensure that everything turns out okay. 

I wish I could pause certain moments so I can clear my mind and escape from the complexities and frustrations that embed themselves in my web of life. It wouldn’t really be life without the disheartening moments, but I just wish I could have a break from it all. 

Things That Come to Mind

Sitting - waiting - wondering. The three things that possess my afternoon. I’ve been in bed practically all day. Watching movies, talking to friends, looking up stuff online. Procrastinating as usual - you know, my normal Saturday routine. And I must say, it feels beautiful outside. I’ve only gone out a few times today, but it feels great. The wind is blowing, the sun is shining - thus, cementing my love for the fall in Texas. 

Then there’s that whole waiting thing. I’m a Longhorn and love being one. Today we play against Baylor, who happen to be ranked above us for the first time in twenty-five years. So I’m hoping that we pull out a win today. I think we’ve gotten so accustomed to winning at Texas that it hurts even worse than normal when we lose. But I’m also waiting for tomorrow, when I get to hang out with some really good friends of mine!!! Talk about excited!!

My mind often travels to some pretty interesting places. It reminds me of a train coasting down its track while traveling through a lush green forest. Trees crowd the sky and force the sun to shine through at jagged angles. My thoughts rush past the windows of the train. There’s an image of you. Your skin glows in the warmth of the sunlight. Your hair kisses the tips of your shoulders. I stare into your eyes and wonder how great things would be, if there was ever more between us. 

"Life without love is like a tree without blossoms or fruit."
Kahlil Gibran
Time is always dwindling away from me. But I think I like life better that way. I don’t like not having things to do, it makes me feel as though I’m wasting a day - or an hour - or a moment. I like using my time wisely and doing the things that I really love. But sometimes, it doesn’t always happen that way. 
Sometimes I get lost amongst all of the action, that I forget about my own happiness. “As long as my friends are happy, I’ll be happy,” is the greatest lie that I tell myself. But maybe as my hourglass keeps draining, my lie will become my reality. 

Through the Trees

There it is. I can see the lush green fields – dew kissing the tips of the blades of grass. The sky is a deep shade of blue, with white wisps floating here and there. Trees stretch towards the sky and stroke the clouds, causing them to swirl back and forth in the sky. A quick breeze blows through – I can feel it graze my arms, causing the small hairs to stand and wave in the coolness. The sun coats my skin in a warm glow and creates a thin mist on my arms.

The field is littered with flowers – all different colors with different smells. There is golden one with white petals. I bend down to smell it – it reminds me of warm honey. Another one catches my attention. It’s smaller than the gold and white one, but its colors are just as beautiful. Its stem is a deep shade of blue, with red petals – each petal is streaked with swirls of silver. Its petals are soft and feel like suede on my fingers.

Birds sing rhythmically in the trees and one fly’s down and lands on the hook of my shoulder. Its feathers are a shade of mahogany, with ribbons of purple running their length. Its beak is also mahogany and is long and straight. The bird reaches down into the palm of my hand and tears a small piece of the flower’s petals. It’s quite the entire time, but I can tell that it’s satisfied with its lunch. I stand and walk with the bird on my shoulder. It chirps softly in my ear. I walk deeper into the forest. The trees surround me and cast long shadows along the forest floor. Sharp rays cut through the trees.

I sit on the ground and admire my work. This is the best part of my reality – my imagination runs wild.

legos:

zoloffthezombie:

I’m thinking of going professional?

Zombies rule.

HAHAHA! SWEET!

Until the very…last…drop…

I love days like this. A fine mist coats my skin - carried by the breeze. Days like this, I wish I could stay home - cup of green tea on my nightstand - laptop in my lap - writing. Letting my mind travel to the deepest depths of my imagination - discovering some of the most implausible creatures.

My imagination exists in a distant land, filled with lush green fields, sky-scraping forests, and wildlife that only I could conjure. These are the days where my imagination feels most like reality. It’s when I can relax in my own skin and enjoy the unpredictability of it all. These raindrops could last forever.

Right foot first…

I absolutely love to take walks - either alone, or with a good friend. They give me time to lay out all of the thoughts in my mind; which happens to be quite a lot. My thoughts are like precious gems buried deep in the Cretaceous mines of my mind.

I never really know what my next thought will be, but that’s the most exciting part. I get to surprise myself with intricacies and simplistic moments that those around me will definitely appreciate.

It feels good being able to get lost within myself - to explore every crevice and particle of my being.

Stepping Stones

My mind has definitely been the lone passenger aboard a space shuttle through emotion and confusion. But in retrospect, it was worth it for this moment.

I’m definitely happy with where you and I are now. It feels great to be friends again - although our friendship never ended in the beginning - but I missed these moments.

I know it’s going to take time for us to be back to where we were, but these stepping stones are pretty sturdy - sturdy, now that’s reassuring.